Playlisting 003

So, this is a playlist you possibly didn't expect. I love every single track in this mix.

1. My love - Justin Timberlake

2. Made in America - Jay-Z and Kanye West feat. Frank Ocean

3. Mockingbird - Eminem

4. Bad Religion - Frank Ocean
5. Runaway - Kanye West feat. Pusha T
6. Please Come Home - Gary Clark Jr.
7. Wilhelms Scream - James Blake
8. Nothing On You - B.O.B. feat. Bruno Mars
9. American Boy - Estelle feat. Kanye West
10. Sweet Life - Frank Ocean
11. Suit & Tie - Justin Timberlake feat. Jay-Z
12. Heartless - Kanye West
13. Limit To Your Love - James Blake
14. Young Forever - Jay-Z feat. Mr. Hudson
15. Empire State of Mind - Jay-Z feat. Alicia Keys

Happy friday people!

Bookworming 001: The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Tengo una manía de que cuando me gusta un libro, lo leo por lo menos unas 3 veces. En estos días me aburrí de mi celular y decidí que me pasa mejor el tiempo cuando leo en el metro que cuando juego Candy Crush. Anyways, mientras espero que me lleguen los libros que pedí (reviews coming soon enough) decidí leer (oootra vez) esta verde joyita.

Claro, todos conocen The Perks of Being a Wallflower, since it's been made into a major movie now and it starrs Emma Watson, pero lo que yo quiero platicar es de la primera vez que leí este libro. Y la segunda y la tercera.

Eran de esos días que no tenía nada que hacer, ni ganas. Estaba encerrada en mi cuarto, en Mexicali (cosa que no sucedía muy seguido) y como siempre, explorando a nuestro gran amigo el Internet. Muchas veces me había topado con el título de este libro y nunca lo había encontrado, pero finalmente ese día lo encontré. Empecé a leerlo por (como dije) no tener nada mejor que hacer y cuando menos me dí cuenta ya estaba leyendo la última página. En un día. Ni siquiera, en unas horas.

Es de esas cosas que cuando terminan, no sabes qué pensar ni qué sentir. Tenía los ojos en blanco y estaba pensando muchísimas cosas. Es de esas historias que se te quedan en la mente. Que piensas en lo difícil que es la vida. Que te identificas con el personaje aunque no sea nada igual a ti. Cada vez que lo leo, me sigue pasando lo mismo, pero mejor. Creo que es una de esas historias que todos deberíamos de leer cuando somos adolescentes y la vida no tiene sentido.

Para los que no tienen idea de qué se trata, prácticamente es un morrito que está a punto de entrar a la prepa y decide escribirle cartas a un destinatario anónimo, donde le cuenta toda clase de situaciones que le pasan desde el día uno. Puesto así suena bastante chafa, pero Stephen Chbosky sabe cómo hacerte sentir cosas.

Ya que si les da flojera aventarse la lectura, siempre existe el DVD con Emma Watson en él. Emma fucking Watson. That should always be worth your time.

Wishlist 01: In the middle of summer

I always happen to have a lot of free time in my hands, even when I'm really busy. So what can one possibly do when it is given the heavenly privilege of free time? Of course, you waste it sufring the web, lusting for a thousand things that you definitely don't need but certainly want (and will buy).

I thought I'd share some of these things with you, including some links in case you are interested in wasting all your time and money, too.

1. Diana F+ flash 2. Diana+ 20 mm Fisheye Lens 3. American Apparel Gold Metallic Nail Polish 4. Saltwater Gold Sandals 5. Shwood Belmont Wooden Sunglasses 6. Jawbone Jambox 7. The Beatles Revolver LP 8. Goldcoast The Salvo Skateboard 9. Swatch Golden Rebel

1. I have two Dianas and one of them came with a flash, but I accidentally dropped it once and it stopped working ever since. I feel like the Dianas aren't quite as magical without the gel-coloured flash, so I really look forward to getting this baby back with me.

2. Because everything looks cuter in Fisheye.

3. Come on, I've been trying to have golden nails since forever, and I think this might be the actual solution.

4. I've been wanting to get a pair of sandals for a while, even though it's rain season now here in Mexico City. I think they're confortable enough and they look pretty sober. They even remind me of when I was a little girl.

5. Wooden sunglasses, what else can I say?

6. This little boxed buddy is far more powerful than one would believe. And of course we all want a new speaker for our iPhones.

7. I have been trying to collect all of The Beatles' remastered vinyl albums, so far I've got three and I've decided Revolver is next on my list.

8. So my friend Yareli and I have set our minds in one thing: we want to skate. We have to get a board first, then a pair of proper shoes and then we have to lose our fears. I'll let you know about that one.

9. It's been like 3 years since I first "decided" that I wanted to get a watch. I never use watches (obviously, after 3 years of not getting one), but I think it's a pretty nice accessory. In this very moment I'd like to get the golden one. But who knows, I change my mind about colors pretty quickly.

Playlisting 002: California on the Brain

So, this blog seems to have been forever dead (since the beginning of the year). I apologize, as a lot has been going on and it would've been nice to share it but I didn't. I will do that again, I promise.


But first things first, here's my second playlist to share with you. Don't judge me for missing the west side. PS: I hate how 8tracks won't let me upload more than 2 songs per artist.

1. Amber - 311
2. Doin' Time - Sublime
3. Anti-Gravity Love Song (Summer Romance) - Incubus
4. Dark Blue - Jack's Mannequin
5. Sunday Morning - No Doubt
6. Champagne - 311
7. Stellar - Incubus
8. Wrong Way - Sublime
9. I'll Be Missing You - Puff Daddy
10. When it's Over - Sugar Ray
11. California - Phantom Planet
12. Come On Eileen - Save Ferris
13. Lady (Hear Me Tonight) - Modjo
14. Just a Girl - No Doubt
15. Fly - Sugar Ray

Smile for today.

The Realm of Possibility.

Lying away beside you,

These thoughts run through my head.

The inhale. The exhale.

The watching in the dark.

You can sleep through anything,

except your parents coming home.

But they are gone for the weekend,

so I am here.

Watching you as you sleep.

The gentle movements.

The blue room.

You have no idea.

You sleep, I watch.

The afterwards.

We have just been as close as two people can be.

You have said those three words.

And I believed it.

Now you are asleep, and it is dark,

and I am back with myself again.

You have no idea. This dark.

It would be so easy to let you take me with you.

That waking dreamland we escape to every now and then.

To be the person you think I am.

That person worthy of your love...

But I'm not.

I do not deserve you.

Your breath, my confession.

I have hurt people.

Different people, the same hurt.

I have done things because I wanted to.

For no other reason than wanting to.

I have done things.

I have been that darkness.

You are sleeping with your arm around the pillow,

your feet dangling off the bed.

There should only be one of us here.

You have no idea that I will break your heart.

When you break someone's heart,

you also break your own.

Whenever I approach the truth,

you back away from it.

You don't want to know.

But you should.

The more you love me,

the more I will ruin you.

I will take my darkness and I will push it inside you. 

I have done unforgivable things.

(You inhale, you exhale)

I have taken advantage of other people's weaknesses in order to cover my own.

I have slept with boys even though I knew they would later make me want to die.

I have lied so often that I've lost all track of the truth.

I have stolen people's boyfriends,

because I knew I could. 

I am not capable of something you are capable of. 

That is, Love.

I have the capacity for attraction.

Even for admiration.

You deserve someone who will turn her world for you,

someone who will give you sweetness.

I am unkind.

I am that kind.

You say you do not see it.

You say I am too hard on myself. 

But I have lived with myself for too many years.

I know exactly how hard I am.

You will argue with me.

(Not now, you are asleep).

You will rip yourself to shreds to prove that I am worth loving.

You will not hear the chorus of everyone I've let down.

You give me hope. 

I debate whether I deserve it. 

Forgive me for what I might do to you.

The threat of my past in my future.

The inhale, the exhale. 

The unsilent silence.

The blue room.

Seeing in the dark.

The unearned comfort of you.

My regrets. I regret I will try.

Doing nothing but aging.

I'm sitting here in my office when a song starts playing...  sounds familiar and distant, from another time, even another life. Reminds me of someone I used to be, and I'm not quite sure I'm still that me. It talks about the place that I was born in, a place I love so much, a place where I really belong. Talks about coming back to it, to where we started.

I did that once already, I came back. Everything was not new, it was all the same as it was before I left, but it made me feel alright inside, being back. Smelling the old smells, eating what I used to eat, with the people I used to. It was all fun for a while but then it started to fade again. It felt dull like it used to, it felt painfully familiar and not exciting.

How many times are we allowed to get bored and start over? They've warned me, the people: "Dude, you can't be doing this forever you know? Going back and forth..." But why can't I? If it's ok with me, shouldn't it make everyone happy? That I pursue what I want, here or any other place? Yeah it gets tiring, to change to your old phone number and then back again to a new one every once in a while, but it's just a freaking phone number, a damn postal code.

I guess in the end it's a matter of caring too much of what other people feel about your decisions, but what is really important is that we are ok and in peace with whatever we decide to do with OUR lives. 'Cause it's our life, not theirs, and if we screw up, we will pay the consequences and if we succeed, we will get to enjoy our success.

So the question is for myself and the answer should only come from within... am I ready to do this all over again?

Playlisting 001: La Pradera

I think you people would also get to know a lot of what's in my mind if you got to listen to what makes me feel things. This is the first playlist I've decided to share with the world, 'cause I've been playing it on repeat since I can't remember when.

1. The Pelican - Menomena
2. When I Grow Up - Fever Ray
3. Fake Empire - The National
4. Second Song - TV on the Radio
5. Laura - Scissor Sisters
6. Mary - Scissor Sisters
7. Libraries - Seabear
8. 'Til the End of Time - DeVotchKa
9. Crazy - Ray LaMontagne
10. Intensions - The Whitest Boy Alive
11. Gravity - The Whitest Boy Alive
12. Turistas - Inmigrantes
13. Summer Romance (Anti-Gravity Love Song) - Incubus
14. Echo - Incubus
15. Cosmic Love - Florence and the Machine
16. Commerce City Sister - DeVotchKa
17. The World is Not Enough - Garbage
18. R U Mine? - Arctic Monkeys
19. Fire and the Thud - Arctic Monkeys
20. Days go by (Acoustic) - Dirty Vegas
21. Live with Me - Massive Attack
22. Exit Music (For a Film) - Radiohead

You can thank me later, and enjoy now: listening here.